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I was overwhelmed with situations in life
in which I had no control. At the end of month, I started to
realize that I had not spent enough time with God. I was being
constantly bombarded with unpleasant thoughts. I knew they were
not from God. Beside the attack of unpleasant thoughts, I knew
in my spirit that God wanted to spend time with me.
I was trying so hard to please God through works. I was
worried about the website and trying to find ways to increase
participation. I was making food for the neighbors. I was giving
gifts to others from my mission fund. I was trying to think of
list of things to do to bring glory to God. I know that I have a
tendency to perform acts of service but have difficulty just
sitting and waiting for God. I don’t take enough time to just
listen to Him. I was too busy. He has so much to say but I felt
I just have so much to do.
I did my weekly quiz for the website on Sunday and decided
that the entire week would be dedicated to just listening to
God. I put my laptop away and did not turn it on again till
Saturday. God truly loves me and although my life is dedicated
to doing His perfect will sometimes His perfect will is sitting
and listening to Him.
I had forgotten that we are to have a relationship. I was not
required to just perform acts of service. I needed to spend
quality time with God. I needed to listen and let God speak to
me. I absolutely knew that He missed me. I had let situation in
my life consume my time and energy. He needed to talk and I
absolutely needed to listen. He wanted to share with me because
we were friends and I had been only capable of attempting to do
things for Him. He did not just want my acts of service. He
wanted me.
I had a renewed mind by the end of the week, I was changed. I
sat for hours and just read the Bible. I sang and played the
piano. Of course, I cleaned my house, prepared meals, did
laundry, and shopped for household items but most importantly I
spent time with God. He shared His heart and I listened.
He is so loving and caring. He wants to communicate with each
and every one of us. I cried because I had not spent time with
my friend. He wanted to share His life with me and I needed to
listen.
My verse for the week was Hebrews 11:6.
But without faith it is impossible to please Him, for he
who comes to God must believe that He is, and that He is a
rewarder of those who diligently seek Him.
I have the faith in God which He has
cemented in my life because of His grace. Now I had the reward
for diligently seeking Him. He shared Himself with me. |
